idk, my bff Jill.

my life is unraveling again...
i don't know what to do.
financially i have screwed myself over.
emotionally/mentally i am hanging by a thread
spiritually i'm still fighting to get back to where i was
physically i'm being lazy again.

ugh...
do i really need someone to help stabilize my life?
i don't know. i've had someone for the past 5 years..
and that dependency on one person has affected me so much..

i don't know what it's like to stand alone.
stand by myself.
no support, nothing to hide behind..
no one to run to.
i mean, i have people i can run to, just not like that.

help. i'm drowning.