i'm scared.

to let you know how i feel this time. i don't know how to put it to words. i just don't want you to get hurt, the last thing i want is for anyone to get hurt. i don't know what i'm going to do anymore.

'and i am not immune, i only want to be loved. but i feel safe behind the firewall.'

Empty and broken.

It's never the best feeling in the world, when the one who has the other half of your heart squishes it in front of your face. We've been through so much and right now it's a lot. I don't want to sound selfish or anything, I'm just heartbroken. It really got to me this time. It really did.

I wish my summer started off better than this.

"Thank you, it was so thoughtful of you."

Can't you even say that?
Happy anniversary, babe.

summer...

is officially here.

3 months of freedom.

happy happy.

happy mother's day.

happy birthday, Anthony!

Sanctus Real - I'm Not Alright

If weakness is a wound that no one wants to speak of
Then "cool" is just how far we have to fall
I am not immune, I only want to be loved
But I feel safe behind the firewall

Can I lose my need to impress?
If you want the truth I need to confess


I'm not alright, I'm broken inside
And all I go through, it leads me to You

Burn away the pride
Bring me to my weakness
Until everything I hide behind is gone
And when I'm open wide with nothing left to cling to
Only You are there to lead me on.

'Cause honestly, I'm not that strong.

I'm not alright, I'm broken inside
Broken inside
And all I go through, it leads me to You
Leads me to You
Closer to You
Closer to You
Closer to You

I'm not alright I'm broken inside
Broken inside
I'm broken inside, Broken inside
And all I go through leads me to You
Leads me to You

I'm not alright, I'm not alright
I'm not alright ... that's why I need You.