I miss David Michael Cundiff. I miss having his presence around me, I miss having him hold me, I miss his smell, his smile, his eyes, his quirkyness; I miss him. But the amazing thing about it all is that we may be thousands of miles away we still love each other where our love has no bounds. Just getting a text from him gives me butterflies, being able to hear his voice even for just 5 minutes satisfies my heart. It's amazing. God is so amazing when He puts someone in your life, especially that someone who makes you feel whole.
I finally found myself and I'm not letting go anymore. I am not going to lose myself because I found my happiness through God and I thank Him SOOO much for placing David in my life. I know we have gone through so many ups and mostly downs, but we fought through them all to get to where we are at now. :) I don't care what anyone else says about us, because they have nothing to do with us. They can gossip, they can put us down, but they don't know what we have and what we have is different. It's awesome, it's perfect. Haha, I'm not one to throw that word around easily, perfect. Because what is perfect? Some pure, something clean and prestige, something with no error. Yea, sure we fight, and get on each others' nerves, but that's what makes it SO perfect. Because before, we would fight and not talk about it, or we'll talk about it and we'd just get even more mad at one another. But now, it's not like that anymore. We both thank God for each other and I thank God for being a part of our lives. Thank you for everything Lord.
Thank YOU David Michael, for being the best and most understanding boyfriend in the world! I LOVE YOU with ALL MY HEART! *kish!*
Haha. Just something I had on my heart. I don't know if any of it makes sense. xD Oh well.
Wednesday, October 29, 2008
Friday, October 24, 2008
Carpe diem -- Seize the day.
Recently a good friend of mine left me a comment on myspace expressing how he missed the simple things in life when in truth, we can live the simple life everyday. Things only get complicated when we make them complicated. It's a fact; God doesn't give us situations we cannot handle. We ask for patience he sits us in Ewa Beach traffic (inside joke). We gotta learn to look past the surface and dig deeper, we gotta look outside the box.
I'm tired of hearing people complain about their lives when they don't do anything about it. There are people around the world who are in far worse situations than we are and they are living their lives to the fullest. They don't worry about what is happening now, but the fact that if they keep on pushing forward towards the greater goal of their lives, they will most definitely be in a better place in the end. We need to stop being so pessimistic and be more optimistic. It's not hard. Just open your eyes, open your heart to the world around you and let it all in.
I'm tired of hearing people complain about their lives when they don't do anything about it. There are people around the world who are in far worse situations than we are and they are living their lives to the fullest. They don't worry about what is happening now, but the fact that if they keep on pushing forward towards the greater goal of their lives, they will most definitely be in a better place in the end. We need to stop being so pessimistic and be more optimistic. It's not hard. Just open your eyes, open your heart to the world around you and let it all in.
Monday, October 20, 2008
So you think you can love?
What a retreat. I am amazed at all the changed hearts and the new outlooks on life. It really is a great feeling inside to know that 89 teens hearts were touched and changed even in the smallest way.
Usually, I come off weekends with a spiritual high that would last a life time but this retreat, it was different when I came home. The real world hit me faster than it ever hit me before. Family life is great, it's never been better. But other things seem to go downhill.
Haha, that main particular being with David. We had another 'fight' today. I don't even know what to call it really. There was no yelling... but there was a lot of silence and I heard irritation in his voice. It makes me sad. I hate getting attacked directly at the heart.
Usually, I come off weekends with a spiritual high that would last a life time but this retreat, it was different when I came home. The real world hit me faster than it ever hit me before. Family life is great, it's never been better. But other things seem to go downhill.
Haha, that main particular being with David. We had another 'fight' today. I don't even know what to call it really. There was no yelling... but there was a lot of silence and I heard irritation in his voice. It makes me sad. I hate getting attacked directly at the heart.
Wednesday, October 15, 2008
Together we can make things happen...
Hello! Haha, well, I think I am gonna start blogging again! I need some place to express my thoughts and feelings and why not better than in an online journal. Haha, at least I know that my information will be backed up online!
What's happening with me lately? I'm back at best buy! Haha, yea. It's always a great place to work. ^^ i'm not in the camera department anymore, come find me in the computer department. Haha, i think it's funny how i wanted to go into computers when i first applied and then i get placed in cameras because i have more experience and now that i'm NOT in a computer related major i work in computers. it tickles me. haha. oh well.
anyway. that's all i have to say for now! i'll be back later. :)
What's happening with me lately? I'm back at best buy! Haha, yea. It's always a great place to work. ^^ i'm not in the camera department anymore, come find me in the computer department. Haha, i think it's funny how i wanted to go into computers when i first applied and then i get placed in cameras because i have more experience and now that i'm NOT in a computer related major i work in computers. it tickles me. haha. oh well.
anyway. that's all i have to say for now! i'll be back later. :)
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